Creator Deceiver Destroyer (poem)

Creator Deceiver Destroyer
[4/7/2014]

As I long for you and call for you
I know not what aspect you will bring
If you come, no, when you come
I do not know which face I hope to see

I thought I craved the creator
crafty, the benevolent,
gift-giver to men and gods
Would you come as the lover?
But would even your succour
your blessing, your passion
be enough to cure
a black heart of melancholy
would even your fire
be enough to warm the icy cavern
inside this hollow shell

And if you came as trickster
player of pranks
weaver of schemes and lies
you would delight a mind
dulled by ennui, bored with life
and this sterile earth
but would even your tricks
grow stale with time and habit

And if you come as chaos
As vengeance, as destroyer
I would welcome that also
Perhaps most of all